So far Operation “Chill the Eff Out” is going well.
Thursday night I went for my first “I’m not stressing out” run. John asked how far I was going, and I responded, “I dunno, maybe 8?” I ran 9 miles and maintained marathon pace on most of the miles (minus a few with hills), which was a big win for me. It was not an effortless run — my legs felt tight and my body was achy, but I tried not to stress about it.
Thursday was a pretty crappy day, and I’m starting to get frustrated with house hunting and worried I’m not where I “should” be in life. I didn’t think about my frustrations for most of the run and mostly focused on whatever pop song was blasting in my ears. But as I was running up Dexter to get home, I suddenly got really angry.
If I were a more dramatic person, I would have thrown dishes on the ground and kicked something. But since I a) didn’t have any dishes available; and b) even if I did, I wouldn’t want to deal with the hassle of cleaning up my mess, I charged up the hill and let myself cry. Thankfully you can’t cry a whole lot while running up a hill, but I let out frustration I’ve been holding in for the last few weeks.
While it wasn’t a great run, it helped me cope with my frustrations and issues in a healthy way. The cliché “running is cheaper than therapy” is cheesy but true. If you’re feeling angry, sad, frustrated, worried or stressed, just run it out. Even a terrible run will make you feel better; endorphins are miracle workers.
Another way to cope with disappointment and frustration? Retail therapy! I bought these lovely pink shoes on Friday when I was picking up my race packet for the Seattle Marathon 10k. I’ll recap the race later, but spoiler alert: it was horrible! My legs have never felt so heavy and tired during a race, but I had a good attitude and didn’t panic about my less than stellar performance.